Right or wrong?

In the waiting room of my lonelyness
the question arises in me.
Am I doing right?
Am I doing wrong?
Should I let myself go?
What am I waiting for?

Go with the flow was I once told.
If this is what it meant
I wonder where this flow will take me.

In my everyday life.

At home after a couple of intense trips
I ask the Lord about my daily routine.

Money is no obstacle for me
and still I have the feeling that I should do something
with my everyday life.

Going on with the career I've followed so far
is the first option.
Wether that will make me satisfied
is a difficult-to-answer doubt.

Heading to the path of creativity
with photo-shooting and modelling
is something brand new.
Interesting, motivating,
how can I start my career?

I want to focus my effort in God,
letting Him guide me
with his wisdom and his love
towards my future career.
I fear nothing,
I am certain the Lord will be my light along the way.

How I can develop my spiritual self
is another doubt.
Books, people, experiences?
I have no clue as to where I have to look to.
Probable the most sensible is to keep walking,
as the advertisement goes,
not worrying much about anything,
letting life get further and further.

Probably I am just too controlling
and life wants to surprise me!

Four months have passed by since I left my job.
Hundreds of good moments have taken place.
Many more await to occur.
In the meantime,
I pray to You, oh Lord,
let my prayer be heard.
You, who make the sun rise from the East,
have mercy on your son,
who loves you,
and don't ever leave me alone.
For you are my strength,
only you, my Lord,
it is to you that I look in the time of sadness.

Your word goes:
Fear nothing!
You are about to make big things.
Trust me
and you will not be deceived.

The blessing of the Lord
on you, my son,
now and forever.